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Saturday, October 15, 2005

wat's goin on.. i'm changin.. i'm different.. i'm turnin into someone tt i didnt expect i will.. y..

i start to steal.. well, not money.. not hp.. worst still rite.. steal those things tt is not realli worth to steal, doin crime for nth.. n know wat.. i'm goin to do more stealin.. n i dun feel tt i'm doin sth wrong when i steal, instead, i felt normal? excited? hapi?

i start to lie?? hmMm.. oh well.. i started lyin once upon a time.. lied to my parents.. but nv to friendsSs..

i start to pon remedials.. n go home slp.. wat kind of attitude i'm havin.. wat m i doin.. tis period of time is the most important time, n i'm foolin ard.. oh gosh~~ i'm dead..

i used to die die will have tuition on the selected dates, but.. i cancelled a section ytd.. jus bcox i wanna slp.. i'm a stupid idiot pig!! lazy till can go die le.. if i die rite away, i have nth to blame.. i cnanot say tt i havnt do wat i wan n wat i should.. becox, i didnt use my time well, i jus waste them away.. y m i so lazy.. slp n slp.. die liao can slp all i wan, y m i still slpin so much now..

well.. i oso start to pon sch.. jus becox i feel tt the lessons on tt dae is a waste of my time.. y m i thinkin in tis way.. the teachers dun even mind comin in n waste away their time on our class.. n here i'm thinkin like tis.. anyone tt come n kill mi now, i wont blame u or hate u at all.. instead, i will thank u.. for the rest of the centuries..

Qns: wat m i??

Ans: i'm a person tt waste my time away, waste other ppl's time.. waste my parents money.. wastin the food, the air, the resources, the space, the papers.. maybe i shouldnt be here.. who knows.. maybe jus becox my mama gave birth to mi n make a great sin??

ppl readin my blog, u have alreadi wasted few mins of ur time.. do not waste it anymore, close tis window n go do wat u have to.. cox i'm jus crappin here.. wastin more of my time in my life.. do not follow my footstep..

lost of words..

i'm realli the most useless thing i came across.. most useless creature ever..

well.. when i'm out there with my friends, i'm always have tis smile on my face, always tryin to make my friends smile, hapi.. i try hard to entertain them.. even if i need to behave like a clown, i dun mind, as long as my friends are happi.. friends are more important than my life.. much much more important.. i will do wat i can for them, but not for mi.. well.. it's jus the useless mi..

wat actuali m i?? a victor? a champion? a winner? i think it's all lies.. tis are rubbish to motivate ppl.. i'm a loser, a rubbish, a useless creature..

i think ppl may be surprise tt i'm talkin in tis manner? haha.. tt's the other side of mi, which my friends will nv see it face to face.. nv..

wat actualli i'm doin, i duno.. i think i'm jus doin wat i should, not wat i want.. its like givin seats to someone tt needs more than mi? i think i should do it, so i did it.. i think i should should study, so i did.. i think i should be always wearin a smile on my face in front of my friends, i do it always.. nv fail?? i hope so.. n now i'm tryin to see if i can fall for **, cox i think i should? i'm rubbish.. i'm worse than a piece of shit.. wat m i doin.. wat m i talkin..

tis shall be the end of tis entry..

I WAS HERE @ 10/15/2005 02:17:00 am l 0Comment

Monday, October 10, 2005

hmMm.. jus another entry to add to my gu shi.. =>

well, ytd was my brother, char, de born dae.. o81o.. a date tt will clash with the exams every year.. jus tt tis year, didnt not have exam durin her born dae.. but the poor ah ru cannot come out celebrate, cox of the tuition.. sadded..

hmMm.. went lakeside to meet kelly.. thn reach tampines, wanna find where is the kbox, then go buy cake loOo.. but kanna spotted by mz n char outside tm.. then they need to develop the photos, then we quickly go find.. ran back all the way frm p*** dunno how to spell.. mi n kelly were swearin like pig nia.. walk abit.. cox peiyi n emily was late..

went kbox, sing.. mi like tree swayin.. onli mi n kelly there high like tt sia.. sian.. then halfway went out take the cake, then come back loOo.. dunno char gt veri touch or not oso.. but think should be have ba.. hehe..

7pm liao, still no one come tell us time's up.. then we all continue loOO.. emily n mz do the handstand till wrist pain.. haiyoOO.. duno how to take care de leh..

after tt, emily n py went home, cox gt exam n papers to study for.. then mi, char, mz n kelly went to makan.. char treat us.. so gd hor.. born gal gal still treat us.. get mi a coffee oso.. so sweet of her hor.. haha.. n i think mz is quite disturb seein mi addin so many packets of sugar in my coffee.. hehe.. but i think quite normal ba..

send mz home.. went to char hse loOO.. actualli wanan go find ah ru instead.. but char's lao dou like wan char to go home.. soOO bo bian loOO.. go char hse..

watched <>.. gt jolin n xiao zhu.. quite funni.. haha.. then char's niang join us a tthe beginnin then go rest le.. she quite fun sia.. know quite alot of nice nice shows.. haiz.. my mama dun even know.. onli think tt i'm wastin my time..

after the prog, went back char's room.. study abit, then i started "telling fortune".. usin poker cards.. 4ggtten where i learn de oso le.. then we were laughin in the room till siao sia.. ah ru on the phone oso laugh till siao ba?? hope so..

4am like tt kelly n char went to slp loOo.. char was the fastest.. 5mins like tt slp loOo.. li hai hor.. hehe.. then kelly oso fall aslp le, onli mi cant slp, so i sms ah ru loOo.. cox i know she not slpin.. hehe.. msg awhile, wait for msg wait till fall aslp sia.. haha.. n i realise i gt serious night-blindness?? i guess i gt to get more vitamin A le..

3 of us wake up ard 6++, then went back to slp after awhile.. till 10++, 11am like tt then realli wake up.. haha!! everyone wakin for ppl to wake up.. then while waitin, all go back to slp.. funni sia.. went to makan breakfast.. char's niang bought for us.. veri nice of her nia.. xie xie~~

hmMm.. lazy to type le.. eyes pain.. lazy.. blur.. so cut short, went to BK meet ah ru while then mi n kelly go home loOo.. met shujun on the train n saw her "weekdays".. haha!! ..

n home sweet home..

I WAS HERE @ 10/10/2005 01:57:00 pm l 0Comment

Sunday, October 02, 2005

2dae's a sat.. actualli planned to go play pool todae.. but think 4get abt it ba.. onli mi n kelly.. although enough for a game, but.. so sian.. anyway.. ytd go out le wat.. hehe

well.. ytd went sch.. take results.. was realli disappointed.. 1st time i mus say i felt so hurt by my results.. put in effort n get tis kind of.. haiz.. wat m i doin.. like tt how to take o level.. die le la.. like tt how to go to the course i want..

after sch went junping's mama shop makan zai mee fen, etc.. realli nice.. so here i'm intro ppl hor.. go the the hawker near hua yi de.. the zai mee fen.. best!! =>..

then 2.30 went off, bus on strike.. reach home ard 3++.. bathe, change, went out to meet ah ru, kelly, evan, etc~~... went to the bus stop.. no bus came.. i can take any bus to the mrt station then go Lot 1.. but wait for 10mins, no sight of bus.. then weiru they all wait so long le, i oso buei tahan.. take cab go find them.. 1st time so xiang bu kan.. haha!!

reach there, rush to the entrance n find them.. wr waited for 1hr?? n kelly n evan waited for 35mins? at the entrance for mi.. sorry!! let ur wait so long, waste so much time.. stand there somemore.. sorry!! then go walk.. walk till library, went in n find a place to sit n they start doin their own work loOO.. onli mi tis brought nth, n walk ard the library see gt wat bks tt interests mi loOo~~ think i realli make them laugh like siao ytd at the library.. even mi, laugh till gt tears.. haha~~ no idea y i so high oso.. maybe siao le ba.. read through wr de chinese work.. OMG~~ veri short form.. n veri direct translation sia~~ but still oKay la.. at least her teacher gave her a 53 marks.. hehe.. then wr told us abt last time she wrote her name wrongly.. realli so funi loOO!! n we are gettin more n more high in the library..

emily n joesph came.. emily come n talk abit then go walk walk le.. after awhile, she came with yaxin.. thn they go shop.. ard 6.. went to take neoprints.. i will post them on the next entry i guess, emily havnt send mi.. not realli fun.. think can be more fun de.. hehe.. n tt wr.. not goin to let her tough the pen next time le~~ anyhow add dog on mi.. argh~~

after tt, wr went home by cab.. then the rest of us n emily, yx went suki sushi to makan.. 5 of us ate things worth $49.80.. wah~~ we stay there dunno for how long ar.. eat liao then chat n chat.. veri funni.. haha!! went home, cox late le.. then reach home.. nth much to say le..

think tts all.. think i gt to start muggin oso.. for my o's.. i mus realli wake up liao.. wat lousy results i gt.. even mi oso no eye see ar.. take care all..

I WAS HERE @ 10/02/2005 03:17:00 am l 0Comment